It has taken me a long time, but I have finally learned the word "regret" on this trip.
My friend YH said that maybe I just like having drama in my life and having self-pity from time to time. But, whether it's true or not true, I do sincerely feel, that there is much to regret about. I don't know whether making this small trip is the right thing to do, or just a way to feel more sorry about myself. Instead of celebrating a colourful past, I feel sorrow and sadness. Is it the rainy weather? the familiar streets? the people? the season? or everything combined which remind me so much of it.
Life is hard.
你呀.. 放假就放假啦... 唔准諗咁多呀~ 有咩都返黎先算啦~ hugs~
ReplyDeleteLife is sometimes hard, but life is also a blessing. Enjoy your stay and blow the sorrow in the air before your fruitful 2008 comes, okay?
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ReplyDeleteAiya, on vacation with nothing else to do... then you'd think think ga ma... especially I'm back in SF... easily falling into that sentimental mood.
Wordy:
Thanks. :)) I think, as my friend YH said yesterday, we all "take stock" or review our achievements and disappointments at year's end, and it's hard for me not to take account for those other "mistakes" I made years ago, when I'm back "at the scene," so this trip to SF has been especially emotional. But I'll take your advice, and hopefully look forward to a fruitful 2008. ;)))))))