最近時常發夢

檢視較大的地圖

夢見的總是日頭遇見、或想過的東西，包括人物、事情、地方。
昨天有點兒發「坳鬥」，上網又Google、又睇Google Map（實在佩服現在的街景圖，差不多整個Berkeley，San Fran都可以看到，包括以前住過的幾個地方），睇舊相。。。為mut？是對往事的一種懷念，當然帶著一點遺憾。

前幾天看過”Milk”，看到以前住過多年的三藩市及流連過的街頭。記得2005年及2007年的旅行，回去都多是流連以前多去的活動範圍：熟悉的日本小廚（Maki）、排大隊的早餐小店（Mama’s及Betty’s Ocean View Diner）、以前每天買送的超級市場 (Andronico’s)、每天路過的Sather Gate、打part-time工的圖書館、偶然下午茶的Crepe咖啡座(Crepe-A-Go-Go)、午餐的墨西哥餐廳（Cancun），以及Stanford Mall及Hillsdale Mall.

當然，還會包括以前住過的地方：Durant Ave, Unit I, Unit III, Euclid Ave, San Luis Rd, Green Street, Washington Street, Senda Ladera, Marview Way.

春天就是帶來很多的回憶。皆因春天有我們的生日、相識的紀念日、很多的旅行、很多的共處。而昨天晚上亦發了一個“好夢”——我們復合了。以前的誤會好像通通一抹而乾淨。深情的擁抱，真的想再次感受。夢裏你好像個子小了，莫非近來要應付press conference所以消瘦？你的powerpoint與以前的沒有太多不同，很simple、解釋了個architecture後又這樣那樣的technical資料，有以前的Reference page類似根據行業而分配的vertical integration。雖然我不懂，但都記得點滴。

有時候覺得，那麼多年後，心情沒有什麼改變。是我放不低，還是我念舊？是一刻的銘記、還是無聊非常的動作？夢見的是真的，自己幻想的是假的。發過夢，醒來的時候就應該返回真實世界。雖然時間把很多記憶都沖談，但真正值得記得的，永遠都不會忘記。數一數，咖啡座相遇的一刻已經是14年前的事。我還記得你穿著一件風褸（was it a Polo? Just remember it was white and yellow），我就兩手拿著兩袋東西，外面正下著雨。那一天就像昨天一樣，雖然詳細的我不記得，但以我很差的記憶來說，還算記得蠻多的。

我懷念以前的日子，但不代表我現在過得不好。可能當時實在太年輕。是否就是初戀的感覺，都沒相干了。就可能是相處的時間不短，而且做了很多東西，所以回憶很多、而會令我想起以前的東西的機會也是比較多。我現在過得很好，有關心我、支持我的人。生活總算兩餐無憂，而且有一份穩定的工作，而且是我有興趣的東西。

沒什麼，只希望你都過得很好。。。我掛念我們以前的日子。

Age of Innocence

P4, circa 1986

P6, circa 1988

The amazing thing about Facebook is we get back in touch with people from ages ago... and this I mean Primary school classmates. For me it doesn't date back anymore than that because I just don't remember any names from my kindergarten days... except this girl whom also went to the same school with me in our primary and secondary school days.

Our primary school campus will be redeveloped this summer, so I went back to take some pics for memory's sake.

The last time I went back was 6 years ago, when I taught at the secondary school next door as a Sub Teacher for a couple of months. But honestly, I really hadn't set foot in the primary school campus for ... 20 years.

Everything has shrunk. I remember running around the playground like it was a 400m track, and we could play "ping pong football/Watermelon football" in the covered playground, where we could easily fit 400 kids there for morning assembly... I honestly don't know how we could do that now... it's so small?!

The same basketball court, same hard surface where we played during Recess

I didn't make plans to meet up with old classmates, but did meet 3 while I was there. It's just strange to see them... we all look the same (except now I'm triple-sized), but I haven't ANY clue what has become of them. Even old buddies, 20 years is almost a life time of memories and changes. Our FB profiles show that we've all become individuals, with our own friends, families, career, etc. Our 6 years together, does it amount to anything? Does it mean much to any of us? Except sharing the playground, corridors, classrooms, it doesn't seem to add up to much, does it?

Gosh, hadn't seen Erica in at least 18 years

Acquaintances come in and out of your life. Sometimes I don't even remember the names of people I met last week. But these people, about 60 of them, names stick in the back of my mind for the last 20-odd years. Funny but I actually dream about them sometimes, playing in our playground... Moments in class, a certain teachers, "relationships", buddies, competitions... That's our childhood. Sacred, precious, and so innocent. Only happy memories, and nothing else. Our Age of Innocence.

Bye bye, part of my childhood